Skipping to go drive my baby around? yesyesyes. Fuck school. I just want to drive around and blast my music. And the grounds wet too? Bett. ;)
This is the first time in a while that you could’ve came over and we could’ve actually spent time together. Without having to be outside working on your car. All i wanted to do was cuddle with you. Ive been wanting to cuddle for so long it isn’t even fair. Cause we never do that anymore. And i miss it. I miss spending time with you. I miss just being around you without having to be around your car. I think thats why I’ve been in bad moods towards you lately. Cause i never get time with you like i used to. It’s like you don’t have time to spend time with me. Why do you think it always bothers me when you try to bring your friends over whenever you come to work on your car? Thats like the only time you spend with me now. And it just isn’t fair. And then i feel like all this doesn’t even phase you cause you practically ignore me when you’re with your friends or when you’re drinking. That’s a reason why I don’t like you drinking like that. But just about every time you hangout with your friends, you drink. And then i either get one word replies, or nothing at all. it seriously sucks. I’m actually really sad right now. I was looking forward to you coming over. I was looking forward to trying to cuddle with you. But instead I’ve been home all day waiting to see you.. And of course, me being me, I wouldn’t do anything else today cause I had a little hope that you’d somehow find a way over to spend time with me. This sucks. So much. I hate being alone and you’re not even talking to me really. But I can’t say I’m not used to all this. Every time you go to your friends before you “come to see me”, the seeing me part doesn’t happen and i get ignored till you get home. :/ And since this happens every time you’re with your friends it just seems like I’m 2nd to your friends. And i know i cant make you put me before them but it just makes me feel like shit cause I always put you first. I know you need your friend time, I need mine too. But I just hate how I get ignored and you drink every time you’re with them. I don’t do that.. :/
Today just sucked. I feel like complete shit. But it’s not like I didn’t expect any of this to happen. At least I was somewhat prepared for it I guess. :l
can we just get this straight? if you message me on tumblr you are not annoying me i am a lonely person and any form of human contact is a god send
(Source: cokedup-botoxgirl)
